My Letter to You

So its been about 6 years since we last spoke wow I can't believe how time flies so I want to catch you up on a couple of things I had a baby girl about 5 years ago now in February her name is Amaya she is so beautiful and such a character too you would definitely have fallen in love with this one. I know what u are thinking it's about time you had that girl. I'v been doing good working and taking care of the kids Potsy is ok too he says hello, still working at the hospital trying to figure out a way how to go to nursing school but I know somehow someway I'll be able to finish school one day. The boys are getting bigger they always ask about you too. Pooh is almost 13 now can you believe it, I know I can't either. Words cannot express how much I miss you and I don't think you will ever know how much you meant to me how many times I think I hear your voice then I remember oh you're not there. I just wanted to write you and let you know how much I miss you and love you and that everything you taught me, everything you instilled in me was not in vain. I'm only the mother that I am today because of you I know there are so many times I should of said or expressed how I felt to you but I just couldn't because it was hard for me to express myself then but I want you to know now how much you really mean to me you were my everything you still are my everything.  I never wanted you to go I couldn't believe that you left I was confused I couldn't believe it it was just like at the drop of a dime you had gone you had left me I couldn't believe it I didn't want you to go I don't want you to go but it's a little late for that right. I want you to know you are my everything you are my reason for leaving you are the reason why I get up in the morning and you give me the strength to make it through each day. I know it times it seems like it was hard for me to say it before but I can definitely say it now I love you mom and I miss you and I can't wait to see you again. I know some of you are wondering what is this letter about this letter to my mom she passed away 6 years ago from cancer she was the closest thing to me in this world besides my husband and my kids. I wanted to take this time to write this letter to her  because I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, so I wrote this hoping that if everything my mom taught me growing up is true somehow someway she will be able to hear my words. I love you mom,  one day I hope I will be able to see your face again. if there is any lesson to be learned from this blog it would be that if you have the chance to tell the person in your life that you love them let them know every chance you get because you never know when that chance can be taken away in just a blink of an eye.